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I am a youth services librarian. I have 2 kids. I obsess about writing and about making things.

On Becoming the Barking Mom

On Becoming the Barking Mom
There are some things you can’t really know until you experience them. This is something I am constantly learning over and over again as a parent. I used to look at the parent with the misbehaving child in the supermarket, or the child who ran wild during sacrament meeting (even making it up onto the podium) and think, “Why don’t they…?” But I will never again say “I’d never do that as a parent.” It has taken years to come to this point, but I’ve been learning that you can’t know what you might end up doing, or what new side of yourself may come out as your parenting role changes (as the children go through different growing up stages, as the number of children you have around changes, etc.).

I was a new mother when I first moved here to Irvine. I had a great life—a mild baby that took naps, and was too little to resist my agenda in any willful way. I made friends with a family that lived in the apartment below us. They had 3 children—the oldest (a girl) in school and two small boys at home. They weren’t quiet to say the least. But it never bothered me. Listening to my neighbor and her friend interact with their children, however, made me think the kind of things I mentioned above. At the time, I wrote a poem (which is where this post title comes from) where I imagine the point of view of our apartment’s former resident—a cat lover and quiet, organized girl lived there with her husband before us.

I now have two small boys (and not necessarily rambunctious by most standards). We live in a new neighborhood and in a town home style apartment, where we have to keep our doors open for homemade air conditioning in hot weather. I have discovered, in the time since we first moved here, that I tend to holler. I come from a long line of holler-ers and it isn’t beyond me to shout to someone upstairs (or raise my voice with someone in the same room), slam doors, and that’s not necessarily only when I’ve run out of patience. I’m just kind of loud. And, I hear myself echoing the ineffective rhetorical questions of my old neighbor (“Why are you doing that to your brother!?”). I tell you this because I recently received a letter from an anonymous neighbor telling me that the volume of noise that comes from our open doors (or from just outside our house when we decide to play outside) is a daily disruption and at a disturbing level. There you go—here is where I have become the barking mom. I’m not sure yet what I think about it. Is it such a bad thing to be? Is it purely a matter of temperament and/or upbringing? Are people destined to become a certain type of parent despite future ideals?

Brooke Jones Williams lives in Southern California with her husband and two children. She is passionate about reading and writing, and all things artistic. She is currently pursuing a Master’s Degree in Library and Information Science.

I am a youth services librarian. I have 2 kids. I obsess about writing and about making things.

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