I’ve been on a leave of absence in blogging for the last six-ish months because of some chaos in my personal life. I had hoped that upon coming back to blogging, I could give a brief summary of what happened (emphasis on past-tense) and then tie it up in a neat little bow with a devotional-style spiritual lesson about what I learned about the comfortably in the rear-view mirror challenge. It’s how general conference talks and Ensign articles are framed. It’s not, however, how real life usually works.
The problem that caused me to need to step back for a bit is still ongoing. It’s reached a slow simmer instead of a full rolling boil, but it could flare up again at any moment, and it shows no sign of truly resolving anytime soon. Life is long, and the trial won’t be permanent, but it feels permanent in the moment.
I wish we heard more at church about people being in the middle of things. Our baptismal covenant includes mourning with those who mourn and comforting those who stand in need of comfort, but we sure try hard not to mourn or need comfort at church. I think it’s because we want to be seen as favored by God, and we’ve absorbed the erroneous idea that those who are favored by God have lives of ease.
I’ve made a motion to dismiss this trial, and the great Judge of the universe has not seen fit yet to grant that motion. I guess I’ll have to wait for the verdict. In the mean time, I’ll lean on my friends, who have been there to mourn with me and comfort me. And maybe that’s the lesson from this trial – I have people in my corner.